Ugh! I'm sick sick sick!!
It started last night at work. My tonsils were super swollen and red. I felt like I had a fever but didn't. It hurt to swallow and I was soooo thirsty! The headache was there when I woke up and still there when I got out of bed around noon. I still didn't take anything for it and went into town. I felt like crap. I had lunch and went to get another thermometer, cause my pain in the ass cats took mine and played with it, so only they know where it is, and some Tylenol. Its funny how concerned with pregnancy related safety I am all of a sudden. And how much I don't feel like drinking. Anyway, I made some stops in town but in an hour I was about done and ready to come home. I was hot and achy and felt like general crap. My BBs weren't tender at all today when I got up but by 8 tonight they were tender and sore to the touch. CP is still high and soft. I cant feel the CO but the other day I could feel a small bump on it again. I'm tired today too. I could have napped when I got home but instead I was just lazy :) My temp is 99.8, which is higher then its been. I'm cranky and emotional. I had a huge crying spell today after a phone call. I could feel how ridiculous it was for my outburst but I couldn't control it. I hope its a pregnancy monster rearing its head. I think tonight that I'm a tad bit more sensitive to smells, everything smells stronger. I noticed it first with the dogs bone. It was laying on the floor beside the couch and I could smell it like it was on my lap! And for the last hour or so, I SWEAR one of the animals has gone to the bathroom somewhere but I just cant find it! GRRR!!
I am thinking that bed might be a good idea already at 9:20... and I slept till noon today! Maybe this is the tired feeling everyone else but me seems to have.
OH OH OH OH OH OH!! So I figured I was 10 DPO today and I was super jealous that one of the ladies that I chat with on BabyAndBump got a BFP today, that I should grab one of the 6$ test and POAS!
I swear to whatever is out there that there was a faint faint line on the ClearBlue. I had a holy shit moment, and then figured that I must be seeing things so I threw it out. Of course the faint little line got the better of me and instead of second guessing all night, I pulled out a First Response and peed again (right away, Might I add..Full bladder) and got a BFN. Hmm.. Too quick for the first to be evap but not dark enough for a positive for sure. I even went back several times to check the test, pulling them from the garbage. lol I took apart the ClearBlue to see if I could see a better line! I may or may not have been imagining it... I hope I wasn't! The First Response test wasn't ever anything but a BFN. I guess I will try again tomorrow and see what happens. I'm down to one test so I may wait.
I also ordered some OPKs from a website online. 100 of them. LOL I think that should do me. If theres no BFP this month then I'm going to use the OPK to help me confirm my O days. I think that will help, although I'm still pretty confident that we may have done things right this cycle.
I'm almost mentally preparing myself for the possible shock of getting AF... I should be off that day so I will be able to have a little freakout on my own time. :( Its still a whole 7 days away but that goes so fast that I have to start preparing myself now for the assault.
I was sort of surprised at my reaction when I saw the little faint line. I didn't panic at all. I just felt super excited. I still worry if this is the right time or if this will be the 'We will make it work' kinda life Ill always have. I guess either way, your never really prepared for a baby. I also guess that DH better get his butt in gear and start getting some cash for a sparkly for me if hes planning on growing a mini-him in my belly. ;)
