So for the last few days I have been an emotional wreck. I cried all day yesterday and I dont know why. Its different from the depression that I had years ago. I wasnt in a panic and didnt feel like I was losing control. It was more of a wave of crying that I couldnt fight. I wasnt scared or angry or sad, per say. I have been sad since Cinder got sick on Monday but the crying wasnt really from being sad. I picked Matt up from work since I needed to get out of the house for a bit and the second that I started to talk to him about my bad day, I started to cry again. No control at all. Maybe I was just tired since I feel alot better today. I did have a moment this morning reading something on facebook where I teared and felt like I couldnt stop the crying from coming.
Today my BBs are getting a little tender. Its like they are deep tissue sore more so then swollen and painful. Its weird. Ive already caved and tested a few times and Im driving myself crazy since its obviously BFN right now. The belly is still there... which I hope isnt just an addition of fat cause if it is then baby making will be off the table for a few months for me to lost weight. Its disgusting if its not baby related. It's really getting me down.
Maybe tomorrow I'll get my answer
